I touched the fire and I felt the warmth inside my grasp
Asking myself questions like how long do I think it will last
But conscious thought was not among the leading motive
When throwing caution to the wind when you're seeking just to live
I felt a spark in every danger I waltzed into willingly
Like this dance with the devil would never end up killing me
Foolish kid with a death wish, but this life leaves me breathless
Speechless on the edge of something that turned out to be endless
I built an empire of memories and squandered all the energy
On something undeserving, unrelenting, never meant for me
I crossed unnerving to the deep end, diving recklessly and fast
Somehow missed the irony, eyes closed shut till the moment passed

I enjoy the risks I take because I'm no longer pretending;
If they backfire and kill me I'll call this a happy ending [x2]

Something happy, and I'm still waiting for
Something happy, and I'm still praying for
Something happy to reveal itself to me
So that one day I can really be the person I pretend to be

Stop me if you've heard this one before, I'm on the floor
Curling into a ball like I can't even take this life no more
Oh sure, we've all been there, we quake against our problems
But I live there quite too often and tend to rock the bottom
Like I prefer to wallow here, like I pretend to swallow fear
But every time tomorrow nears I sense another hollow year
I'm giving up again! My motto, don't wear out my catch phrase
And I'll stay away from yours, telling me "It's just a phase"
Laugh it off, it's all we got, then get up and give it a shot
Because if we're not dying yet we might as well smile through these thoughts
Thicken the plot, quicken the clot, then realize it's all for naught
All this talk is cheaper than the time that we thought we bought
We're expected to make the most of it, but within parameters
Always stepping up but never prepared, professional amateurs
Well you can hand me the baseball bat because I'm feeling up to swing
I'm numb to the recoil so when I fail I won't miss a thing

I enjoy the risks I take because I'm no longer pretending;
If they backfire and kill me I'll call this a happy ending [x2]

Something happy, and I'm still waiting for
Something happy, and I'm still praying for
Something happy to reveal itself to me
So that one day I can really be the person I pretend to be

This is not the end for me, it was never meant to be [x4]
(Something happy)

I enjoy the risks I take because I'm no longer pretending;
If they backfire and kill me [...]

Something happy, and I'm still waiting for
Something happy, and I'm still praying for
Something happy to reveal itself to me
So that one day I can really be the person I pretend to be [x2]