Behind closed doors, they do not know what lurks... A cataclysm of events leading to a singular point on the timeline An explosion of emotion imminent in their binding Disaster and euphoria dropped chaotically like clockwork We are one side of a rigged coin We are one face of a loaded die We are one card in a stacked deck And we are taking our chances Never again will they say we are just empty shells Cast us into fear of God, fear of Life, fear of Hell Never again will they say we are nothing more than clones Mindless masses working, our purpose to serve as drones Never again will they say we are only empty inside Giving us no true hope, solace, or source in which to confide Never again will they strip us of our goals, our hopes and plans We wield whatever tools necessary within our empty hands It is not a battle-plan or mission statement, don't be mistaken The key to our unwinding is nothing more than a realization And if you're brave enough to undergo it, I ask you open up your minds To secrets, obvious and honest, too easy not to find I am empty handed, charging head first into the unknown All my previous weapons have been outgrown I keep knowledge as power and an outlook realistic Break problems down into pieces that are much more simplistic This time we're going ballistic, the truth can not hide Raging infernos never willfully choose to subside So by force of death you cannot deter my velocity It was curiosity that bred this monstrosity The world's a big place in which to make a permanent mark So I started off small and tried to ignite with a spark Now the fire is hungry, and I'm trying my hardest Not every flame consumes the world; not everyone can be an artist And I like it like that, value not cheapened with blaze All the lights consuming land is Hell to be raised Impossible odds doesn't mean I didn't understand it I just feel that this is right for me; even if I am empty handed

I tried to change the world But the world changed me instead I thought I had such good ideas Until they got in my head Extroversion... I looked around the world to find flaws Discovered vague notions of justice backed up with crooked laws Foundation built on hypocrisy, needed more rights I tried to make a difference but they said I had no insight Ripped apart my ethics, as if I even had any One against the world, they were simply too many And when they finally broke me down I had to reimagine myself As it stood I stood trapped within my own mental prison cell I tried to change the world But the world changed me instead I thought I had such good ideas Until they got in my head Introversion... I looked within myself to find truth Discovered vague notions backed up with no proof Foundation built on mistrust in myself, needed simplicity The bolted shut doors needed more force than electricity I delved to the bottom of my heart to find a new start Damn near ripped the cables in my ribcage apart While I was there I discovered the entrance into a pit Didn't like the looks of the depth, but I still tried to stomach it Jumped in with no intention of returning to the surface Caught in suspension between work and searching for a purpose Felt nauseous by the time I was meant to leave As insurance I armed my heart; now it sits on my sleeve My hands tremble with the shake of a thousand earthquakes I guess I just couldn't take to heart the impact of the stakes My body takes damage at the expense of my brain They told me to get help, I claimed that they were insane! Human condition is not built around faith and superstition It's up to the cogs to modify their position And if you meddle with that, by throwing metal in that You're gonna clog up the system; gears jammed and trapped I tried to change the world But the world changed me instead I thought I had such good ideas Until they got in my head

Plain english, let's sit down and talk this out Just two adults, there's no need to scream or shout I have no doubts that you were good in all of your intentions But I feel that there are aspects that you've failed to mention So go on, tell me, was I the problem? Don't you lie I can deal with the fact I'm just another dumb guy I suck at relationships, and when elation slips I don't want to be the one that explanation skips I wasn't banking on my ranking to win over your decision I was hoping and then coping with infliction of division Diving into metaphors, trying to reach a better score Ignoring every person who kept telling me to "get her more" Is this worth fighting for? Yes, you better believe it But I'm no longer convinced you really want to perceive it Maybe you wanted to trade me in for a little fast fun I've solved 99 problems, now you're the last one There is no bounty that I'm trying to collect I'm just counting the days while I sit and reflect I didn't that think that the pieces were completely perfect But I was trying my hardest just to make them connect Every time I reach demise I just sit and dissect Trying to keep my emotion and all my memories checked Sitting and then wishing for another resurrect No use in the cryptics, I gotta get direct I'll assure my victory through our faded history The memory meant more to me than just some jaded misery My happiness is blasting this; my music will fill the void Because no matter what my stature this cannot be destroyed I'm not overjoyed, no, but at least I gained inspiration Cause I can't stop thinking about you and can't shake the frustration I know we can still talk, I know I seem like a jerk So sorry it's been awhile, I feel I might go berserk See I did not fall in love, but I was teetering on the edge Almost got pushed off the ledge, but wasn't so fast to allege I'm still there, trying to back up, but my balance is off You're an irresistable force, like a flame to a moth I can't help myself, I need to jump, but I can't stomach the fall Like I built my home up here; velocity will just steal it all You can't just pull me back now, what's in the past is done I've solved 99 problems, now you're the last one There is no bounty that I'm trying to collect I'm just counting the days while I sit and reflect I didn't that think that the pieces were completely perfect But I was trying my hardest just to make them connect Every time I reach demise I just sit and dissect Trying to keep my emotion and all my memories checked Sitting and then wishing for another resurrect No use in the cryptics, I gotta get direct

"Just do it! Do you need a reason?" I told them I did, my friends called treason (x2) Follow the leader, come on, follow the crowd Stop trying to voice your opinions out loud Just do it... We've got the Nike Syndrome Drug culture might as well have it's own holy tome Many people can see the faults in personalities Originality lacks in cool crowd mentality Banality consumes the nature of consumer rationality Rationing rash informalities on technicality Stop trying to do this, start using this and that Until the owners reset, control, and reformat Society propriety is built on anti-sobriety Trying to undermine the guilt and anxiety But we need them, truth be told, to hold our values in place Geared up with Nike Syndrome but didn't train for the race Faced with the options black and white we don't want to be left behind I resigned, defined my life by parameters that were not assigned "Just do it! Do you need a reason?" I told them I did, my friends called treason (x2) The nation is infected; I never thought I'd be dissected But my presence was detected, they strive to leave me disconnected It drained down to a personal level, wanted to meddle Like take a hit of this shit, it's so legit, but my body is a temple Simple to deny smoke, to keep rocks out of my nose Not to drink any poisons that riddle my brain with holes And the riddle it goes: Is it worth all the hassle? They can call me what they want as long as they're ready to battle No problems with their problem, they can do what they like, see I'm not offended by the syndrome, they can live life by Nike They act like I try to be better, I've got vices like any other I drink carbonated acid and treat music like a lover It was my choice to remain clean in things unnatural to me They see me as a threat cause I'm unswayed by powers that be And to each their own perspective, my perception is clear As it stands I don't dictate the way I live by my peers "Just do it! Do you need a reason?" I told them I did "Just do it! Do you need a reason?" I told them I did, my friends called treason (x4)

I can't stop thinking about you... You won't get out of my head... I've tried so hard to replace you... But you keep coming up instead... Get out of here, I don't want you to be here anymore You keep coming back, what are you doing this for!? I love you, I loved you, but I'm sick of your shit Why are you trying to beat me down!? I already forfeit! I give up, I give in, I moved on, I moved out And yet the voices in my head like to scream and shout Like to remind me of you, and when their volume subsides You seem to know and then you show yourself just to remind Just to give me a hint that it could've been better That we could have been together, you wouldn't have broken forever And now that it's never, you want to rub it in my face From a faraway place, gone but leaving a trace But I'm happy too, as long as I'm not thinking of you So stop reminding me about the things we'll never get to do Whatever though, typical teenage angst on a pedestal I'll remedy with music and write my own lyrics until the kettle blows Turning up the heat on our personal body of water Until you evaporate from my life and are no longer a bother And you infect my lyrics, the fourth wall has been broken Because I've rapped the same in the past; the audience has spoken They say if you're gonna rap about girls, find a better way to do it Man it's trite and played out, so I had to renew it So I figured I would make you into the song, didn't know where to start The etchings came up weak; I couldn't detach you from my heart To put you on paper, you stay there like a persistent leach I'm feeling purged of the practiced lessons I used to preach And in a lesser informed era I'd consider this a healing Now I realize I was stupid, got left with a hollow feeling Stealing notions of trust, you had me strung out on lies Crossing oceans of lust, I didn't see the strings were tied The knots in my stomach were indicators of the disaster When the snowballs started rolling the knots unwound even faster And I got left in the cold, you were the manifestation of snow Comforting in the winter but eventually you had to go So very easy to mold, melted in others hands When the blizzard kept me in I was reminded of broken plans Where did you go? What happened every night you were gone? I feared for the worst but you assured me that I was wrong And when I found out the truth, you tried to place the guilt on me Like I was built not to see that you're simply filled with deceit You were nothing but a boulder trying to smolder my blaze I was so stoked but when trouble hit I was counting the days And when the sticks had all broken and the stones crushed my bones The words were sharp enough to cut me up and you left me alone Not to be melodramatic, our end is anticlimactic It's just so sad it had to be so drastic, I just had to have it And so goodbye to you and us, I hope you're happy away I'm doing my best to squelch your voice; and I'm doing okay

You can't phase me You're crazy I won't let you get to me You can't stop me Don't mock me You just cannot get through see I am better A go-getter I can do without bickering You are calling I'm not falling For more of your trickery I guess by now I probably shoulda learned my lesson The answer so apparent that I no longer question But I still fall into the trap from time to time But that's perfectly fine, it's my mind to bind Sometimes you just need some relief from the routine So I'll take the pain to feel something, jump into the machine Till the grinding gears chew on me, started as a dream And now the grass is blood red not pristine green The trumpet just sounded, think I heard a voice Could barely make it out; telling me I have a choice Kept watch on the situation, the move was clear Eyes glued to the devatation of the hope I held dear Worst fear came to pass, obvious, I'm oblivious Here's the deep end and I don't want to fall into this I'm not shallow, I didn't even get into the pool Diving ain't my style man, cause I wont play the fool You can't phase me You're crazy I won't let you get to me You can't stop me Don't mock me You just cannot get through see I am better A go-getter I can do without bickering You are calling I'm not falling For more of your trickery They wanted me to dive in, go six feet deep When I peered over the edge, started to shuffle my feet I was ready for the fall but instead chose to retreat Not even out of fear, felt like going back to sleep It seemed a wise decision as my foot is made of lead The lack of oxygen tends to leave most people dead So I fled, what, looked at her agenda; saw the roots She thought that she was clever crafting cement boots Balls and chains, torture things that would lead to my demise She caught a glimpse of dread when she looked into my eyes I despise to think of those who jump head first They wind up tangled in her web, left for dead or worse A parade of past lovers, everyone will cheer They used to kiss you, now they're plagued with fear I feel bad for them, I made a quick escape Got out before you clawed for your prize; a piece of heart to take You can't phase me You're crazy I won't let you get to me You can't stop me Don't mock me You just cannot get through see I am better A go-getter I can do without bickering You are calling I'm not falling For more of your trickery (x2)

I don't want to be expendable, don't want to be replaceable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that There's a fine line between the memory and the untracable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that My god, what have I become, simply a vessel full of words Filled with infinite energy but no understanding of how things work I want to make a difference but it turns out I have no credentials Useless and replacable, feels like I'm going mental But I just get on with my life, yeah I get on with my grind And I run run run run 'til I'm running out of time Out of line, out of my mind, and out of original thoughts I keep reaching into my old bag of tricks because now it's all I've got I don't want to be expendable, don't want to be replaceable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that There's a fine line between the memory and the untracable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that [x2] I thought I'd give it up, the mentality of falling But my journey to the apathetic was my imagination stalling I realize in retrospect that this was never my calling I forced myself into a box and it's no wonder it's appauling And they tell me to just quit, and they tell me to just stop I say nevermind, nevermind, man I'll see you at the top And if you should fail to make it, I'll wave from way up here These golden trails and apparitions tend to disappear It was in the way they'd sneer, it was in the way they'd sneer I realized I was going to make it when I acknowledged my lack of fear I don't want to be expendable, but as a human I digress This wasn't my first choice, but I know I could have settled for less I don't want to be expendable, don't want to be replaceable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that There's a fine line between the memory and the untracable Nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, nevermind that [x2]

The pounding in my head just won't go away It's like I find myself doing this every single day Headaches, bad shakes, endless body quakes How long to sedate? How much is it gonna take? Today I picked up the needle and injected it deep I didn't think about consequences, let the medicine seep Into my veins, my blood, irreversible action Searching hopelessly for a moment of satisfaction And really just a distraction, my eyes get real wide As my heart starts to race I feel as though I have died But still standing, too much planning going into the void The abyss not enjoyed, so many hopes destroyed As the regrets flow faster than my heart can pump I feel the panic and the urge to start to jump To work it out, run around, get this out of my head And if I can't stop the pressure then I'd be better of dead Instead of thinking so much, maybe I could just take it easy I've tried to put down the needle so many times, you've gotta believe me Should try to find a new hobby, talk about a new topic But I always find my way back and I just can't seem to stop it The pounding in my head just won't go away It's like I find myself doing this every single day Headaches, bad shakes, endless body quakes How long to sedate? How much is it gonna take? It just comes naturally to me I see you're having your doubts You want to trap me in a room; you want to scream and shout Like I didn't know, like I didn't see the problem with this I'd trade in all your anger for just one trip to this bliss Balled fists, jagged teeth, I'm trying so hard to breathe But the shaking in my lungs intensifies when I try to leave I need a fix, please oh please, after this one I'll quit Then I'll move onto something stronger for just a little bit I mean shit, you can't tell me that you've never wanted to try I can be your gateway if you feel like taking the ride We can keep each other alive through the tales of our times If we don't come back I guess it means that we weren't meant to survive Your vacant stare speaks novels to my damaged ears Like this is the escape that we have both been craving for years So come here, indulge with me just once, let it flow And when you've finally made the mistake, we let it all go (Oh no...) The pounding in my head just won't go away It's like I find myself doing this every single day Headaches, bad shakes, endless body quakes How long to sedate? How much is it gonna take?

An age old riddle... What happens when an unstoppable force collides with an immovable object? What happens when two unstoppable forces collide? Two glass spheres filled with infinite possibility The inanimate claiming the ultimate responsibility Comprehend beginning and end, impossibility Strengthened by each others secret fragility An impossible runway, eons stretched across time A concept stained into reality, yet not quite designed Defined parameters of physics teeter on the tracks A million little details, only two discernible facts: Two tracks, two objects set on a course to collide The only spectacle in light years; only things to reside A void unlike any other, nothing witnessed by life A constant state of night and yet still stricken with light The orbs hold such mystic powers, quite a force to behold Ancient powers untold, unknown events set to unfold Rolled at indescribable speeds and through ridiculous lengths Alone terminal in velocity; monolithic in strength Two glass spheres filled with infinite possibility The inanimate claiming the ultimate responsibility Comprehend beginning and end, impossibility Strengthened by each others secret fragility A manufactured static stature but at no physical cost And an enigma in the concept of the days they should cross Two spheres falling at an increasing state of velocity Collision course imminent and assuring atrocity Curiosity got the better of the aftermath of explosions A sandbox of contents left to the task of erosion Unstoppable was never a trait that was set into the stone Now as it washes away the entire idea seems unknown A concept as it was; created by sentient beings Trying to rule it all by projecting souls onto machines Two enormous titans ride the rails of the massive force Destiny and fate shove them together as a new source Energy wasn't always a convention, but more of an invention By nothing that can be grasped by human minds if mentioned It was the riddle and enigma that planted thoughts in our heads When they shattered and the clues slowly started to spread Two glass spheres filled with infinite possibility The inanimate claiming the ultimate responsibility Comprehend beginning and end, impossibility Strengthened by each others secret fragility An immovable object, an unstoppable force Pit two against each other and you find the source Of course the regions of time don't expand that far Shattered glass realities; the fabric of the bizarre

Empty pages waiting to be filled with my words A hundred songs waiting to be filled with my voice A world of people to get it out there and heard Empty pages to be filled, and it's all by my choice I'm silent... It's like I forgot how to communicate Trying to break sound barriers but living at a human's pace Slower than a human race held down by glue Feeling loopy like I was also stuck and breathing the fumes I've been subdued, finally, I've been waiting for the day That I could no longer sit here pretending this is all okay Not a depressing collapse or an aggressive relapse Don't really know what to call it, a new beginning perhaps I write with such vigor, portray my life through strange figures But I make more mistakes daily than I could count on my fingers Instead of riddles and puzzles, I should just be more open Spend more time working on this instead of sitting around hoping It'll be recepted well, I do this for myself alone I'm happy if you like it but I could be content while unknown I fear change... It's strange, I walk the walk but don't talk it I've got a little spare knowledge and trepidation in my pocket Empty pages waiting to be filled with my words A hundred songs waiting to be filled with my voice A world of people to get it out there and heard Empty pages to be filled, and it's all by my choice A hundred songs written waiting to see the light of day A hundred empty minds waiting to be filled with my voice A world of people out there pretending to be okay Empty hearts to be filled, and it's all by my choice I broke down today... It's like I forgot how to live I forgot how to remember to forget and forgive Gave satisfaction to the faction of weakness in my heart I guess you have to break it down in order to build a new start I got the parts, determination and a quart of clarity Time to see if I can spin this art into prosperity I drift through crowds of people who I will never get to know Don't have time to build the balance man, I've just gotta go My friend once pretended I was dead, I watched the world go up in flames As they all squabbled over death and who was to blame I guess the aim of the game was to see who was most insane Peace and unity seemed to only put strain on their brains I can do without it, forever, I can live happy no problem Some people don't like the depth but I built a house at rock bottom And you can come in and visit, I'll write a song before you leave Like music and a positive outlook is all that you really need Someday we'll all get sick of trying to pretend we don't care We'll do something about it instead of just scream it's not fair Someday we'll all get tired of pretending that we're happy to settle We'll do something about it instead of whine and backpedal Empty pages waiting to be filled with my words A hundred songs waiting to be filled with my voice A world of people to get it out there and heard Empty pages to be filled, and it's all by my choice I wrote volumes of peace in between the lines in my mind Tried to share them with the world but they seemed so unkind Didn't want to hear what I had to say, so I erased every page Overwrote the peace with blind rage, we'll talk peace in a new age For now empty pages are waiting to be filled with my words Don't know if they'll ever be heard, so far they've called it absurd But a world of people seem to be waiting to hear my voice Empty hearts to be filled, and it's all by my choice

(And I feel terrible...) I'd really like to kill myself! Did I say "kill"!? I meant THANK. For the poison I drank that left my memory blank It robbed the memory bank, and I can't feel anymore It cut through the skin and bone right down into my core I hit the floor (I hit the floor, I hit the floor) I can't STOP. I feel it seeping further in my veins I'm gonna drop And I'm falling (falling) and I can't get away From all the horrible things that I have forgotten to say And I feel terrible, and I feel terrible And I feel terrible terrible (It's getting unbearable) So this goes out to the world, especially those filled with hate I'm going to self-destruct and you're all gonna feel great! (And I feel terrible...) I'd really like to curse myself! Did I say "curse"!? I meant EXALT The more I think about it the more I realize I'm at fault I filled all the wounds with salt, and now I feel all too much The more I amputate my limbs the more that I'm out of touch And I can no longer bear to use you as my crutch I'm out of luck (out of luck, out of luck) I can't MOVE. The splitting of the paths made it too hard to choose And I can no longer see what it is that I have to lose And I'm so terrible, and I'm so terrible And I'm so terrible terrible (Now it's unrepairable) We can revel in my ashes as I rise and take form I am I am I am I am I am the eye of the storm (And I feel terrible...)