Where I'm going
Where I've been
This one's for the road again
Some days I spend more time driving than I spend sleeping
It's true, it's messing with the schedule that I've been keeping
It's been seaping into everything, rattling my brain
A screw loose in my vehicle; or maybe I'm just insane
I'm a good pilot though, stellar captain, first person view
We're all under the spell and I handle the curse worse than you
But that's okay, I'll drive it off again, just me and empty roads
From the endless destinations and then back to my abode
But not my home, no never home, I can never integrate
My biggest fear is all the thinking will melt the love into hate
And into space I often stare while cruise control will speed
I ignore the flash and sirens 'cause there's something that I need
I will reach my destination with time to spare or in pieces
But not until the apprehension or the fear decreases
So one more time, just one more time, I'm on the road again
Where sleep and crisis intersect and fold up into the bends
Where I'm going
Where I've been
This one's for the road again
Don't believe me when I say I know exactly where I'm going
I strip pieces of my vehicle until my heart is showing
And it's glowing shades of ultraviolet, harboring the cancer
The road is tired of my exhaustion and is waiting on an answer
That I can't give it, I don't have it, if I did I wouldn't be driving
Meanwhile the sickness in my veins is happy as it's thriving
It feeds on every syllable that I stack wrong and out of place
It needs me to be killable when I crash and skin my face
And I was writing you a letter when I realized I broke the meter
Now I'm measuring my ability to make miles by the liter
I'll deliver it by hand or I'll deliver it on foot
But make no mistake, I'll give more than I mistook
I try to hide regrets, I can't forget, the road is just too cruel
When it's just me and my lonely thoughts all I can think about is you
I learned to read between the lines, from the yellows to the whites
From my place and back to yours, the hellos and the goodnights
Where I'm going
Where I've been
This one's for the road again
And I don't want to seem melodramatic
It's not based on needless angst
Maybe a little bit
You just don't understand
How could you?
Neither can I...
Somewhere between agony and infinity
The plans to reach the endgame and where I begin to be
The girls with an agenda and the ones really into me
From the people I am close to and those just in my vicinity
I will find the perfect balance, I will mend the broken wheels
I will complete every challenge, I will know just how it feels
And so will you, I'll make sure of that, my beauty of the night
Haunting in every street sign I read when you're just out of sight
The clouds have opened up to show me dead stars proudly in the sky
Memories of a forgotten nightlight as we slowly watch them die
I'll be there for every single one, just me, the road, and you
My silence wasn't planned, it was just all that I could do
I can't stop myself from wanting this, it's not a bad thing though
I just need to calibrate my actions when I'm on the go
And when my actions fail to line up with the stimulus I send
I'll find myself swimming in my thoughts alone
Me and the road again